bare feet in the summer.

Done by the hands of a broken artist. You painted black where my naked heart is.

don't forget.

i'm just a perky girl,
among the billions you have not met.
earthlings,please tag :D
born to bloom.
bloom to perish.
sometimes my fantasies are grotesque,
because they are never fulfilled
flames to dust,lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end?

dont deny

dont lie

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atikalemon❤
afiqah❤
johan❤
veron❤
yingxiu❤
jana❤
liling❤
joohweezxs❤
aqilah❤
jiamin❤
Julz❤
mariya❤
raimy❤
tiaratee❤
zaimazzz❤
fioonaaa❤
Sean❤
Rozanna❤
Afiq❤
Teriii!❤
Zhiyuan❤
Stacyyy❤
Yiling❤
Joe❤
Myra❤
terence❤

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Monday, April 27, 2009, 2:27 AM

heyheyhey!!

argreugvnujreGBWGN! cant get over my hair length.idk what to say or where to start with!

hahahaha, anyway,was like thinking of what i was going to type in my blogpost today when i felt so tired and sticky..
then i like looked into the mirror and shaggy haired girl with like a ardini is ardini expression stared backk..
i felt soooo amazingly good, although its not a side i would want you guys to see, but it was so mee ah.
i realised my hair changed, ive probably looked moredecent in a way with my new hair, but yeah, i am like totally me. i know my fringe like was a total different style and like is omgomgomg when i went to school today, but im really tired of maintaining my look everytime although its still a must if i look really bad :D troublesome ah. even when i go out :/

yeah i dont know. random postt :)
bye bitches,ive to go type out somehmework. :D
xoxo.

Saturday, April 25, 2009, 3:57 AM

I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU~!

yayhayhay!
this is meeee! (4/5 yrs ago?)
yeah,and thats medeka, a horse i owned in malaysia :) hot right, its black and velly cute :)
hahahahaha, hm, the weather was realy hot, so that explains my crumpled expression in the picture :D

omg ytd so fun la. cant wait till until midyear, then can do the nobody dance.
ytd was probably the most funfunfun 12.30 - 2.15 i've ever had in school.
it was high baby!

there was five girls (anonymous) dancing in the toilett! :0
i want an iphone ): gonna buy one soon no worries. *comforts myself*

lol. this's post a quickie so ttyl :)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009, 2:52 AM

How hard should I fall,before it's my turn to be heard.

gosh i look fat dammit.

hahahahah

yeah, i changed my blogskin. previous one had problems :)

please say this is nice and simple! lol.

yeah, *sighs*

lots of teeny weeny troubled stuff going on in my head lately.

but but lucky there's stuff to distract me.

and when im alone, the feeling just keeps haunting me,and its all what ifs.

*curses*

yeah, school's tiring ): and like havent go for any appointments im suppose to go for(e.g DENTIST AND FACE :)
hahahahaha! hm, will find time ah.
and and trying to find a cure here for like ulcer, and the cure must be painless.

someone suggested SALT, *ouch*, other ppl suggested a specific cream, some say what watermelon powder?!

hahahaha my ulcer is huge and guess what!!!!!!!

I HAD NOSE BLEED TODAYYYY! SO COOOOOOOL right.

i was just doing the chem experiment today and i felt something trickling in my noce, i dint really care cause i was having slight flu, then when i sucked it in, more came out and when i wiped it off, IT WAS BLOOD! and suddenly have alot alot just flowing. so fun la and cool, cause i never nose bleed for so long!!! fun fun fun. you should have seen mrs sherry goh's face(my chem teacher) she was like :" omgomg, are you ok ardini? was it the experiment? dont do alr dont do alr." she was so concerned,awww. (:

i think the weather too too hot alr, and then i became even more dehydrated, so need more waterrr :0

im so tired, run around school so many times.

you know for what?

CUPS OF FREE 100 PLUS! hahaha!

first it was just me, then more ppl asked me, then i went back class then fatan,m all was like i want i want.

then we run back, got cute guy somemore.

*oops, i meant we're supporting the team singapore*

yeah :D

then thida sick ah. get well soon eh. :)

so fun my class life nowadays. :D

i realised i've talked to ppl i've never really interacted before..

i've hanged out with ppl i thought had their own clique.

i've realised that the people i regarded as top most important is drifting away,

i've realised sometimes in life, you may want to clear the air, but you dont want to because you've always been the one doing it.

also, i know that maybe a one sided story can really change everything.

i've realised i've been so empty,

and nobody bothers filling it up,that now, its time for it to be filled.

i've realised that actually, things arent as bad as i thought.

and its all because i'm happy.

but just partially,and if its gonna have to be like that,its better than feeling empty.

sorry for the emotic passage.

goodbyw lovely brats.

Monday, April 20, 2009, 3:10 AM

sorrrry i look really shag, cause its like in the morning, and dint sleep well, and havent put eyeliner.

hahahaha this one i look okkkk :)

me and sze hui! so happy la to have taken this photo..... :)

hahahahah today in okok mooood :)

yay, updated my songlist in my phoneee. *yawns* so tired la.

somemore today as so called chionging to schooool.

the picture with me and sze hui velly nice right :D i like like like a lot lot lot lot.

my phone likegot problem ah, hm, buying iphone or ipod touch soooon :D

yippee no need everything cramp in one small device. ;)

hmm, i dont know. im not say really problem free now, well, there are like obviously a few thing in my mind that i just cant get over.

the question that often pops up nowadays is why cant i just be like last time?

or why cant we?

ha-ha. hope the people i can depend on really are reliable and not assholes.and whoknows? i may pick up a new friend along the way.*sighs. dont let my darkest fears come true.

okay bye guys, wish your life isnt half as bad as mine :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009, 8:26 AM

''Remember those walls I built,Well baby they're tumbling down''

thanks to thisss babe,i have really nice photos for this post :)

hey jack, wait for me, 12 years later, i'll come for you kay? ;)

me and jack :D a really hot bird.

in weird position but i like.

the weird but cool eyes tat everyone comments about. thanks julz!

cuteeeeeeeeeeeee! look here fiona!

taking bird bird for a walk-about. cute huh.

baby, i'll never let you fall, even if you do, you'll fall in my arms.

SIVIE,id i spelt it correctly, haahaah, she's going thru the sexual maturity stage.like seriously.

the birds was really fun to play with know. one of them was so horrified by the noisy people around me tat it climbed all the way onto my head!

and obviously there was shit all over, buttt i didnt mind.

HAHAHAH.

had like an awesome time at carnival, but the weather totally destroyed my mood :)

the weather is like hothothothothothothot.

yesterday NIGHT, was like 33.5 DEGREE.

hello? global warming?

im migrating to another planet dude!

im sweating right now!

ugggh.

my mooood yesterday was just in the toilet bowl.

first, the weather was hot.

second,something just pissed me off after carnival.

third,i lost my wallet on my way home.

fourth,my phone was going low.

asshole right?

met diana for awhile to chat and then we sat down and when we left, i left my whole pouch there!

when i was bathing then i realised :O

so so dumb,then today right after i make a police report, i cam back and found my pouch at homeeeee!

a really nice old maan came by my house and returned it :) so nice right.

at least old people still have hope :)

hahahahah!

but the thing issss..... i didnt have any form of info of my address in my wallet. :/

creepy but trueeee :O

Friday, April 17, 2009, 9:05 AM

"so close yet so far, its tearing me apart."

hahahaha nice right?

i think she's hot :D

today was ncdcc's PASSING OUT/OFF parade equals, graduating from ncdcc :)

yeah,im a little happy about it cause like its finally over, but then i realise, ncdcc helped me a lot, and really i will miss it :) :)

i mean, like if i dint join, i wouldnt be the pioneer batch,i wouldnt feel smart when wearing uniform, i wouldnt do so many many stuff that other people do.

and the camps that ncdccgave me the oppurtunity to join is amazing awesome,really.

not trying to brag, but i really experienced something i know wouldnt happen again. and even if i go to similar camps, it wont be the same.

damn , today when we really true our berets in the air, i felt so proud of myself, like enduring thru these years,even if i dint go, i will kena tekan and like HAVE TO GO.

and now i wouldnt have the oppurtunity to experience that anymore.

i may not be the really really awesome perfect cadet, but quoting what i learn from CME:

EVERYONE MAKES A DIFFERENCE :)

i got to know nice people along the way and yeahhhh.... :((

*sighs*

im really tired,wonder if i should go for carnival, although im one of the student helpers :0

yeah, and dunno what to wear too. damnn.

AND AND AND I WANNA WATCH 17 AGAIN, MAYBE WATCHING TML, OMG,

i think zac efron is hot :)

i love this songggggg! and the band toooooo! :) although the video abit weird la but the song nice.

me like :)

okay bye bye bye bye.

Thursday, April 16, 2009, 8:49 AM

"Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind,

From the day we met till you were making me cry"

the i'm trying to act like i look okay picture :)

this was what i actually wasssss. :D

candidididididid!

stressed up.

okay. i have like many things to do. damn.

1.iron my uniform and prepare for POP.

2.go see dentist. first appointment*shivers*

3.go have a haircutttt, or wash, or massage.*mmmm*

4.go watch movie with thida!

5.wonder if i should go for carnival.

6.DO MY BLOODY ART PREPARATION.

saturday will be a damn busy dayyy, ive to complete all this shit by then!

this year carnival day like very loser. idk why. have the feelinggg.

wonder if i should have a haircutttt :/

nowadays having good hairdays, so dont feel like cutting, but what if bad hairdays come again ):

okay maybe a 3cm trim? okay, lets make it 2cm.

yeah.

ADRENALINE RUSH.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009, 8:52 AM

was wearing like a tback singlet so it cant really be seen in this photo.

damn you guys who think wrong.

yeah.hahahh.
today was like :o

in class i was just hyper for no reason, you can hear me screaming answers out during english lesson and with fatan just joining me,everyone was like omgomgomg.

HAHA.

then in class, i dont know why, i felt like just those rushhh and my heart suddenly start beating very fast like really fast and i felt weird.

crystaline said its my hormones changing, and i was like huh?! during english lesson?WEIRD.

yeahhh.

and during bio, we learnt about Reproduction in animals,

which you know, is an interesting chapter.

and like now, i curse in a very scientific manner.

INSTEAD OF : YOU !@##$#%^&

I GO:"YOU DAMN URETHRA!"

"WHATEVER, COWPER'S GLAND."

hm, i dont know, less sinful :)

hahaahhahhaa

okkkk.

im tired,xoxo.

bye urinary bladders out there!!!

Sunday, April 12, 2009, 7:06 PM

random pictures in my albummmm.

hey guys!
sighs.
dint make it to school today (:
hm, yesterday night was a sleepless night, with the earphones in my ear, music playing in my head, i was amazed that i didnt doze off. its probably insomnia eh?
yeah, and for me, this year has been a rush, 4 months maybe a long time, but i must say this four months wassss really ... lets just say : HAPPENING :] HA-HA.
yeah. gosh my eyes are half closed right now.
damn, been addicted to many many many songs lately. know anywhere that has like free downloads?

its just the mood i guess, plus everythings just falling apart and coming back again.
*takes a deep breath.
sometimes i wonder whats on people's mind, why would they react this way, why would they want to do certain stuff. i think a chain reaction probably links up know, like you know i slap you,you feel angry and slap back that sort of stuff :] but there's times when all small moments play a parttt. like like like things that are destined to be..

okay*emotional time aside k*
ermerm..
guess what?!!!

LILY ALLEN HAS BEEN HIDING CONCERT TICKETS ALL OVER UK!!
She updates her fans where's the next place she's heading and gives a riddle onwhere she's hiding it.
coooool or whattttt :D
like a treasure huntttt.
HER NEW SONG : NOT FAIR.
the lyrics just cracks me up! check itt out kkk.

Friday, April 10, 2009, 4:01 AM

yipppeeeee~

hot stufffff :D

dubbidubbiidoooooooooo!

ahahahahahah just watched online movies ):
i was actually supposed to go out with dear thida today!

butbut, i woke up at 23o!, went going out, suddenly rain damn heavy, then wait wait wait.

dammit. sorrrrrrrrrryyyyyy thiiiddddddaaaaa.

will make it up to her ;D

very hungryyyyy.

and its still raining so cant go out buy, later maybe ask my mom send me :)

thidaaa!we'll go out tml can?

both expo and T1 :D

xoxo.

Thursday, April 9, 2009, 9:31 AM

ahah. was having a bad hair day.

oh wait, for me? everyday's a bad hair day!

went to tampines 1 today! hm, people call tampines mall tm, now they call tampines 1, T1.

so weird.

ALERT!

human jam today! tampines is practically like infested with humans of all ages.

but you'll actually catch those people who normally go town, checking T1 out,

THAT EQUALS HOTTER GUYS AND GIRLS. :D *fantasizes.*

andand, there's hot shops there.

for no money broker like me, there's at least window shopping {:

butbut now tamp is like more more more crowded, T1 would probably be the new place for ppl to slack in..

DAMN.and there's this jap shop everyone's mad about. yeah.

wonder how long it'll last :/

gosh, im so addicted to so many songs recently, like HEY MONDAY!

their songs are like all awesome, hm, but heard that they are trying to be like paramore :?

just saved some pics for my art!

everything's rushrushrush~

okay bye diddos.

xoxo!

"lets blind their eyes and wave goodbye,lets start the fight"

Wednesday, April 8, 2009, 4:14 AM

hey dudessss.
omgomgomgomgomg. there's a reason i posted up this photo.

GUESS WHATTT?!?!
i just weighed myself at home, and

i weigh ... * drums rolls *
~~50KG.~~
*repeats myself.*
5O KGGGGGG. AS IN KILOGRAMS AND NOPE I DIDNT TYPE WRONGLY, ITS
*FREAKS OUT AND SCREAMS*

dammit.
i used to be just sweet sweet 42kg, and after awhile i went up to 46kg, i freaked out but not much, thinking it was normal, but this FREAKING 50KG, its like too much! helloooo?!

the next time i may just be 55kg alr who knows? i've got to lose weight.

here's the estimation of my weight thruoghout my body:
from bottom to top,

one leg: 15kg, both:30kg,because of my hippo thighs
going on to waist area: maybe 5kg? cause im not that meaty around that area,

breast: 2kg? im a flat so ok,whatever, im trying to be realistic here. but wait, 2kg's alot right? okay, just 800g.

my arms: both is maybe 2kgs?
my head: i heard its not that light so maybe 7kg?
my blood cells:200g.. how heavy can it be right.
okay my bones all add up maybe:5kgs.
totaled up : 50 kg. DAMN IT.

anyway,here's one of the conversations just now.
me:gosh! im like 5o 5o 5o.
xh: *laugha, i told you its your bone liao, why worrryyyy?!
vanessa:*giggles*
me:but my bone so small how can heavy!
xh: * measures my wrist* hmmm..... must see one la.
me: :0 *opens up a MARS CHOC* saying, I SO MUST START CUTTING DOWN MAN.
*realises irony*
on the way home, i bought, 5 chicken dumplings, sliced mango, one cup corn and one cup of bubble tea.
carbohydrateeezzxszxs muchhhh!
OH MY GOD.......
okay.
*stops freaking out alr.*
i realise i havent been blogging like that for quite sometime alr (:
maybe its because i havent been coping much with myself.
but fridays gonna be my off day.
im justgoing to just try struggle free and catch my breath.

hahaha I LOVE LILY ALLEN!
*goes crazy.
She's like pretty hot, except for that time when she was kind of fat and had her times of flings among stars, but she's still a teenager though. but i love her and her songsss. [:
listening to all her songs nowadayssss. :D but i discovered something on the way...

here's lily allen! w/o make up and all, the "shhhh" on her finger is her new tattoo which she got with...............
LINDSAY LOHAN!

COOL OR WHAT! buttttttttt, thats not it,
they copied someoneeeee! who had the tattoo first long ago, who issss...

RIHANNNNAAAAA! OMG RIGHT.
imagine rihanna when she know about it. lol.
okiedokie!
thats enough blabber for the day (;
bye folks.xoxo.ardssszxszx.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009, 8:40 AM

FIGHTING ALL THE DEMONS WILL TAKE TIME.

Everythings not going to be the same anymore.

its harder than you know.

Saturday, April 4, 2009, 8:59 AM

love this song, although the singer not much but the song is NICE :]

when can i deserve my sweet sweet love.

haha, random phrase. so many troubles running through my head, the stronger side just dont wanna care, the softer side just wants to.

in the end, maybe i feel the i shouldnt care, since i know that nobody cares anymore, and why should i care if no one cares?

yeah, thats the way. *sighs. behind everybody, there's always a mask. you dont know if the mask is on or off. you may think that you know, but deep deep inside, you actually dont. i hate that kind of feeling. its the pain that in the end drains you and stirs you away.

i really dont know. i guess there's not much i can do, or can think of. after all even if i do, im the only one.

okay......

*reverse back to normal Ardini.

yay! today went out with THS and Robin(surprisingly) yeah, just sort of hangout. had fun la. teehee, and amazingly ROBIN FIXED MY COMPUTERRR. THANKS AH. AND LIKE ITS TOTALLY USABLE NOW INSTEAD OF THE WAY THS TAUGHT ME: JUST WACK THE WHOLE CPU ==.

hahaha. will update tml ~

"how can i miss you if you never would stay?"