i'm just a perky girl,
among the billions you have not met.
earthlings,please tag :D
born to bloom.
bloom to perish.
sometimes my fantasies are grotesque,
because they are never fulfilled
flames to dust,lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end?

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i double love mashed potato :D

trying to freaking eat it while me and hansoon was like talking and super laughing out loud about an incident with the innocent victoria guys.

hahaha go with hansoon to eat KFC then snapshots. he lorr. not i self obsessed.

The game starts! Off they go!

intro haikal! lol. everyone was laughing cause he look like some lao ah peh with that pole and the bomb hanging behind! rofl.

Me and Hui wen! hahaha i ugly she pretty okay! Screwed!

to tell you th truth, hansoon pee-ed. and it ended up like super embarassing for him cause his whole face red loh. alamak. then everybody were like saying:"eeyer hansoon, you totally not healthy lorr, urine macham like the orange colour water bomb x)" tsktsktsk. HANSOON!
I MAJORLY LOVE HEART THIS PHOTO. IS LIKE THE LIGHTING JUST RIGHT ALL. ALTHOUGH MY EXPRESSION IS LIKE :O BUT... yay! go illiyas! :D

me&couch potato! ahahaha.dont you think he look like kungfu panda except he more darker :D
lol. he look like couch potato! GO DIQ :D
AFANDI.the javelin boy. he is super pro know! his aiming is bagusss! i didnt believe lorr. then he aim the girl when she was like so far, it stopped exactly at her feet!

amirul amin! a few sec1s(dont know girl or boy, but shld be boy:) were like amin handsome sia. then he like ammchio and walked away.. CHEEEYY. i took a snapshot of him smiling widely in front of the camera but in th end just ended up w this D:

ORANGEORANGEORANGE WATER BOMBS! hmm, like f&n orange like that. super loved it.

REDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDREDRED

erm, FOOD COLOURING WITH WATER BOMBS!. hahaha colour nice seh. i was like are they drinkable. but i was like wait, will it taste as good as they look. hmmm. oh shaddup alr D:

erm. thiissss isssss haikalll {: chubby aint he? LOL. sorry haikal for posting but you look funny larr. :D
two of my favourite junior(sec1). dont siao siao eh, both of them know how to do split ok!cute right?! (i know)

(:

ardini says: look at her fucking engrossed face*hints to her that she doesnt even does this for me*, de ming, i feel like cutting off all your hair and after that kick your ding dongs.HARD.
*peeps* OMG *fed up and walks away* even the shop uncle did that!
3 hours later, ardini walks back, thida thinks:"must do nice nice! if not money just gone like that,ex leh walau* ardini punches her.while knowing desmond would so totally be reading this :O
awww. okay lah. (i'll have to put on a fake smile right?) thida's present was niceeee :D SINCERELY, FROM THE BOTTOM DEEP DEEP OF MY BLOODISH HEART.(corny but true)

P/S: de ming, thida has your baby named: ming chun :D

she need maternity DRESSES! (:

*evils laughter*

memories that'll last a lifetime.
we played, yes we did, at every corner, we would leave a lil something behind that'll make us laugh, called, memories.
oh my girlfriends, here's where we spend almost two of our school years. crap.why cant we get the new school? x) yooohoooo mr hafiz/mr fathul, i would like to retain.

hmm, school's starting, holidays ending,homework's piling,teacher's whining. what else?
i hate school . esp when education in singapore is like pishpishbaboomxzxsvavavoomszxs.
will be facing teachers, homework, eeewww. i wna stay in the holidays! hmph.
why cant holi be like two months :O
i guess, its back to the same old dingdong life.
have to wake up early tml!(and the rest of th week and month and year) shittttt. fuckkk.
reality check plsss.


actually, i've thought about it.
to me like i will try my best in studies(duh!) But, i guess 10% of my attention not gna be on that.
it'll be on drumming, piano, (my dream), ahahahah. yesh. i mean like studies is impoortant but i've alr set my mind into like focusing on doing smething other than studies.
if everything fails, i have my father's wallet to back up on, or worse come to worse,
i guess i have to get married to this famous rich guy :B
*smiles,dreams,gazing into space*
hahahaha, hmmm, there's alot of old photo on my malaysia trip blah blah. ahhahahaha hmm, will show and upload for you people to seeee :D

Friday, June 20, 2008, 5:14 AM

:B

maybe i was too used to pleasing everyone that i never thought about myself. my heart feels like the tension of a rubber band being stretched over times that maybe the people pulling it never thought it might just break one day. i dont know if its i'm thinking too much or is it that maybe this is life you know. to me, i felt like i have done the best to be there for everyone, but well, you cant just satisfy everyone in the world right? haha . i dont know whether i should just laugh or cry in this matter know? i told someone before that i feel kindda useless in every way, like on the matter ofstudies, sports , cca, even just myself. i feel so ... _____ ... fill in the blanks. i dont know if anyone could feel me, the way i feel right now. my heart feels empty, i just feel so ugggggggghhh you know? but luckily i try. and there's qingyun,diana, my family, cookie and ash, my dolphin,wyman,ummi,blahblahblah. they were the ones who saved me from drowning in my sorrows.haha corny but true. so back to how am i going to solve my problem. i hate myself i hate the world i hate the green recycling bin. okay random. my mind is a mess now, and school gna start :/ what should i do? ): should i like just carry on my life and even if the problem occurs again just ignore it ? or should i like really bash it out while breaking down which i know i will . hmmm, pwft. i didnt thought this would happen y'know. heebie-jeebie. but think about it not everyone will be thre whenever i'm in need.they too have their own lives. i hate to cope with this. i want and really really want to jusr startover a new life, new ppl around me, new thinking. how i wish maybe one day i could forget evertyhing would just get out of my mind instead of just me trying to bury it in the corner of my head. i have enough family problems now adding to this i feel like just laying on my bed and close my eyes and never wake up . y'know, i thought when i came back from malaysia at least there would be my friends to chill with but hmm, how do i put this? perhaps they were out there having fun with each other that maybe i wasnt suppose to be there . for me, i rather not go to the surabaya trip knowing this would happen. perhaps my holiday trip was too long, drifting slowly apart. haha who would have thought right . i know. hmm , you know this posy is plainly reflecting myself not for anyone to read cause this is a public blog, and trust me ,you dont know want to hear me go on and on , bye.

Thursday, June 19, 2008, 4:28 AM

byebye holidays):

hmmm, whew just came back from malaysia aft like 1 and a half weeks , missing out time chilling out with my friends ): but no choice luh. and qingyun havent do her visa or i would have packed her in my suitcase. and thida sharon all never really contact me so i guessss, i have to go my ownnn.
really cant survive there , shopping and eating like a glutt saved me . thank god .
i'm not sure if i gained weight . Hold on i'll go weigh myself.
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my god.
heebie jeebieeesss!
i gained .. 1kg .. (no offense if you know what i mean)
as in i really ate like nobody's business over there like 4 durians everyday, plus going to the freaking club and order what you want and just sign(no need pay $$) so i guess there are like worms in the digestive system .. hmm this post have been cut off. so now i'll continue what i wna say.

to: qy, sharon, thida

sorry mia for so many days but i bo bian what and somemore sorry didnt hang out with you all often this holi !! i really miss chilling with you all ): haha . i guess you all did have fun yourself right? but its okay lah. schoool reopen hope to see you all again yeahhh?! hahahaha misssssss you alllllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope you all will forgive me!

with loves. ardini

Friday, June 6, 2008, 3:30 AM

forwarding my life D:

hey yalls.

sorry never blog in my pathetic freaking bloggg! gosh.time passes fast people.first, i was suppose to be out of this lion city, gg to crocodile shark city , damn it had a good time, crycrycry , say good bye to honest lovable people .



okay. you know. seriously, at first before going this trip i was afraid, afraid that maybe my weaknesses overcome my strength. but, after meeting the people thre ,students, i fell in love with them. they lead their life not like in singapore. how rich we maybe, how modernised, still? i dont know if its fake impression because of the short period i've stayed there but the feeling was actually

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good.

they were nice honestt friendssss, who became mean by making me cry at the airport like fuck):

i miss you guyyys . i wna run thre now hahaha.



then i had to head to a th sec 2 camp, which a lil mischap happened...



sec2 camp came, i thought thidaaa went! *mumbles* then i rush all th way to school then see "omg its alr so late where the fcuk is thidasann" then when i settled down in th queue so worried, xiaohui suddenly say , eh ardini you got come? then i was like shhhit, confirm got prob liao she like that ask. next question:" THIDA GOT COME?"

i freakkkeeddd out and immediately like say "i thought you will tell thida to come? then she showed the blur look and mumbled something that i didnt bothered. i seriously thought XIAOHUI will tell THIDA, because of their close relationship. i wass like fucckkk, confirm die one this camp.



DURING CAMP,

starting having n1 wasnt easyyy. they were having cliques all amongst each other. and only the malays responded. some just looked around. i wouldnt deny that i was kindda pissed off cause whatever they did all narrows down to how we lead them. and the first day started off bumpy , but then there came the game ouch orbiorbi. pain pain pain. everybody had to sit around in a circle, then when your name is called you have to slap the left or right person thigh. sounds like uggh. BUT, with instructors like YUENSHAN . we were close to dying . and my biggest mistake, sitting beside her. "PIAKKKKKKK" goes my dead thigh cells, broken vessels, and i wasnt suppose to make any sound. everybody started loosening up all. it made things easier, abit.

i was super tired , jet lag from surabaya before that mah. so while teaching how to belay all, i dozed off but pass the test! :D haha. then aiyah belay for them right blah blah..

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one of the teachers that would not be nameddd, told me i have to go for this freaking course :) and had to skip campfire.
in my heart i was cursing alr.
i hid in a corner and i called my dear momma and ask her tolong awhile, then she say she can only do a bit only. i say okieokie as long dont miss campfire can oready.
pro huh. thanks momma!
followed on by performance time. i tell you, i can pull my hair out. everybody didnt wna do anything, they didnt co-operate all, and they all object what we s.i suggested and didnt want to give any ideas. didntt control myself and screamed a lil but bo biaaannn! couldnt control.
then in th end, yasmin! she came up and suggested the dance that s.i suggested earlier, then everyone just okay lor.so we si dance the moves and everybody gained a lil something something in th end :DDDDD



everybody play the game all, the kidnap horh, walao, all the instructors S.I, all tired, i also but bo bian. i have to run with them cause the other s.i all sick and drained out of energy. we play activites to unlock our poor victim hakim (: kinda made the class bond, everybody rushrush all.the good times, will never be erased even when i become old with my saggy brains and STM. :DD blahblah.

SECOND DAY!

me wirda wake up kinda early surprisingly(: hahah i lost two tpss pants and one fucking fbt. unfair lar . xiaohui also. wirda also. leonard also. wtfff. cursessss.

hmm >>> forward to afternoon, we S.I. on first night got a lil lecture from instructors on how we shuld control and swallow the attitude that the campers give us. so yeah we kinda improved. we re-intro us and like that made things better :D then we practised for the dance which went welllll!! can see everybody like satisfied, lauh laugh, not bad n1! hahah aiyah just proceed to the mud part lah.

COMMANDO ROGER!

hahaha shahdan, was my cute lil commando that day :D hahah we went into the mud as in WENT IN . then we had to go the river, then GO UNDER A LOG, FACING THE SAND ALL. trusst me thida, heng you were not thre. uuuhggghh. then e have to splash in the mud and shahdan, was 10 times blacker than he was. and he look like he came out like those jungles and joined usss. :D haha summarise lah
the campfire was great all .
byebye andrewww!
ugly andreww!! {:
hahaha if thida was there it would have been *coughs*better*sneeze*ahem.
kay lah kay lah nnext time show you photo .
my momma came picked me up at 1 am but i drag till 3am to say goodbyes to everyone. ):
this is kindda a too long post. great thank you . byeeeeeeeeeeeee :D